Jewel & Sapphire™

Well it's friday and i've met all the lecturers. The subjects were all tough and well i think we need to read a lot as well. It's mostly theory and time based and so we need to read a lot. I particularly like Mr. Renu, a cool teacher. Haha... Others ok ler.. subjects... i think i can do well in all as long as i study regularly.

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LOUIS MUST STUDY HARD
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Nothing to worry much except some abstract problems,letting it out to a dear friend makes me felt better.... Silly Louis... that's what she's been calling me often lately... haha...

Sometimes it hurts when people think you're not smart... well im not stupid, just lazy.... this semester gambateh lo ~ hardwork pays off as they say and you get luckier as you work harder...

Been blogging almost everyday lately... don't know why... maybe its a way to let go everything here since a friend had been busy lately i basically have no one to share with... can't let everything out here as well.. my feelings and thoughts are often controversial...

Well not alone tho. Khatib yesterday chatted with me with his problems... said i suck at cheering up. Still so honest and so straight forward and thinking of others... sorry being too honest dude. I can't bear lying and giving false hopes... but well you didn't choose the wrong person but life is just challenging....

Another friend... Lady Kano was also having her problems. Didn't know she was also havin that kind of problems... cos she looks great and strong outside... now i understand her more tho. Cheer up friend ^^

The best things in life is not always having what you want but appreciating what you have... but there is one thing i want tho i appreciate it. Somehow i am a bit scared whether will i have it or not. Having it will be challenging to both parties but i promise that i will be strong and stand by it. Personally that is what i want... i don't know what she wants yet tho... i just hope things will be clear and at the moment still great friends...

Respect... somehow this is something i lost... not that i don't respect anyone but it seems that i have become "nobody", invisible and unacknowledged... I've been trying hard and being sincere... it's time really the cost? sometimes i think it's rather unfair... to look back into history...a lot i regretted but it's just too late... we can't never go back to change anything tho..

BUT one thing we can do... i can do... is to look forward, be the best and do my best and being sincere. If people don't give a damn... i still hope there is at least an appreciation.. at least the most powerful word... "thank you"... i didn't ask anyone for anything much... only appreciation and time where you can get together along well....

How i miss my old friends... don't really communicate them much... as we got further... we get distant as well... Daniel, Wira, Faisal, Sharen, Ken, Leong... haha... sometimes i wonder do i have any true friends... or real ones....

But right now maybe i at least have some good chattable friends online or in uni...but we don't normally go out... not to forget my housemates who had been colourful at times....

Working did made me "suspended" for a while... but it deprived me of my study time. Well i need money tho... lots of things to invest and buy. Hehe... Tomorrow is saturday and i am working OT again. I tot they'd pay my daily tho since we're part timers... guess had to wait till the end of the month...

Ending my diary entries for now...