This is my favourite song from Ayumi Hamasaki.... the goddess of my heart XD. Girlfriend comes second...i rather ditch my gf rather than ditch my Queen. Cos her songs had been my inspiration for a long time and well.... she rocks!!! this song is quite meaningful... bout hopes and stuff. Click to enjoy. XD
Yep... a classic favourite. i love this song a lot too. play it often. BUT the video very out a bit. ><
This was a trip made by force and accident. The orignal plan was just to go somewhere and have breakfast and my friend popped the idea of going to KL and have a walk...OMG and i begged him not togo but well since he drives... had no choice. The temple was not in the plan tho but since he is going pimping around the town might as well go somewhere beautiful.
It was my second time and and the first time i went there by feet. Walked from Midvalley to the temple. Took almost an hour and i had to climb a hill. Seriously it was a very tiring trip.
Again i took some photos. It was a cool atmosphere and somehow i made a mistake there which is against my own belief. Got some painful side effects and well got into trouble. It was something personal and spiritual. If i were to go such places again. I won't touch anything.
BBQ Night at Nicole's house after the near end of our second sem celebrating the ending era of some subject *winks* It was a great night but too bad that some didn't came.
Well we had chicken wings, otak otak, sandwiches, potatoes... and er... couldn't remember what we had...>< Most of us had fun. I ate a lot and of course... puked alot outside. ><
Starting the fire took almost an hour until the red indian(shian) came and whoosh... the indian dance and the fire lit up. It was a good night to remember. ^^.
Took some perasaan photos as well. I like the yellow lights... XD
That's er.... my dinner... chicken fried with wing bean and an egg(the yellow one). XD. Not bad also. XD
This is my breakfast today. Potato omellete and fried tomatoes... again it don't look as good as it seems but i sure enjoy my breakfast. XD~
Japanese Steamboat at Shabu Shabu King...! The group photo on the left compromises my housemates- Hu xian ( psycho student ), Shu Lin d birthday gal ( resembles the cartoon character Olive , Popoye's girlfriend by a staggering 80 percent ), Ken Win ( former housemate who tagged along ), De You ( our driver and main organiser), Kia Huey ( Utar Idol Champion who sings like Mariah and she just sings and sings and yada yaday ), Me... who ate a lot and puked a lot, Fung ( can't eat much due to allegry to seafood), Wei min aka Lin Jun Jie the birthday boy and his girlfriend.
Photo on top left is De you slanted and the right is wow... that's a big dramatic bite.
The food there....erm... a lot to eat ... favourites perhaps the yam and seafood. Tiramisu and some junk food. Yeah its a great night where i puke as usual for eating too much and cos i had to take in the leftovers....
I love this song! I got another version which is better but don't know how to post it up here. ><
This is an awesome creativity!!! I don't know what the message was behind this art but i can felt the atmosphere there. It's great!
This is a very beautiful drawing. Starry night. Love it's curves and its also a famous painting. Don't know what else can i say bout this photo. * Jaws open wide *
This guy is my roommate and comrade since we got stuck from Area B512 to Area B306. He is one of those rare friends that i got along well with. Good thing is that he is mature, can fix anything and well knows a lot. On the other hand... he's quite lazy... everyday had to nag him to study ... beh tahan. Most of the times i got free food from him also from the fridge and he never finish his food. ( No i dun take over his plate unless invited). That pic there was taken in Putra... and solo pic was him in the Randy Orton intro move from WWE. Learned many things from him as well... especially swear words... "tiu", "sohai" and "lok chak (67)". God knows what's next... haha. He's a great friend afterall.
That's Yi Hueih and Matthew... in a very "no words to describe" photo. I think this photo is great. Yi Hueih is the class hamster.... i mean assistant course rep but then she seems to do more work than me....>< editing the notes and the online thingy. I do the others... and some sacrifice when the course rep had to stand up automatically before others are being called...T_T. That's Matthew on the right. He is one shy guy and a funny one whom i hug often... not anymore.><... he is quite cute as quoted from someone...haha well he is tho and always brings laughter into the class. Cheers for Matthew for the laughters!
She is ... well a person who influence a large part in my life, changing some parts and thoughts of me and also ... well theres a lot anyway :P. I adore her a lot and love her as a friend. Shes a great listener and a best friend. We talk more online than in real life tho... well more likely she is a good reader since she reads mostly ><. Haha... Yep a beautiful friendship is one that i wish to have with her forever. Someone to be remembered for life. >< Got a sweet name as well where our friendship begins with me teasing her name with "tou fu hua"... rhymes and well sweet.haha...
That's Xin Voon/Ignatius who taught me how to play Go / Wei Qi and i soon get addicted to it and soon getting poor as well. Probably an inspiring person to me in terms of Go as Go really shapes your mind... that is if you play it often... ( i rarely played since im in kl...><) But well there is still room for improvement.
Probably the last gathering of 'Look like JIS students'. All my great buddies there and are different. Wira is a combo of many races, Daniel also a combo, sharen also a combo, Faisal purely indian, my old wise and great Dr Sunil and myself a chinese who is not purely chinese cultured but a mix of everything due to growing up with variety of people. All of em my brothers and sister...Sharen's my so called twin. Daniel the Big bro. Wira .. see him as an elder cos he looks more mature and Fai.... well all of them are more mature than me ><... All of us gonna be great people one day. Haha...
This was probably one of the best times i have. There is Janice, Samantha, me and Yu Hua under the name Jaafar. I still keep the paper.Haha...
Those are two tries of my dinner... fried chicken, potato wedges, fried garlic and onions... they don't look good but they are edible. ><
That my berakfast... i mean breakast >< taken few mornings ago. Enough to hold me till dinner... haha.
Who directed this show? This lonely role has only monolog, oppose to memories only, without ending. There is only you from start to end, you let me fall so deep. If it is meant to be a tragety, why gave me the beauty to act all the getting together and parting.At the starless nights, I attract you with my tears. Since I can't annouce my love to you but only smile and sobbing, let me just forget you from now on. At the starless night, I leave the past to you. If this is only acting, then enjoy my monolog and I will entertain you with my broken heart.
Love this song and i finally got it since i last heart in 1997
I talk to you as to a friend
I hope that's what you've come to be
It feels as though we've made amends
Like we found a way eventually
It was you who picked the pieces up
When I was a broken soul
And then glued me back together
Returned to me what others stole
I don't wanna hurt you
I don't wanna make you sway
Like I know I've done before
I will not do it anymore
I've always been a dreamer
I've had my head among the clouds
Now that I'm coming down
Won't you be my solid ground?
I look at you and see a friend
I hope that's what you wanna be
Are we back now where it all began
Have you finally forgiven me?
You gathered my dreams in
When they all blew away
And then tricked them back into me
You saved me I was almost dead
Eric Clapton - Change the world
If i could reach the stars
Pull one down for you
Shine it on my heart
So you could see the truth
That this love i have inside
is everything it seems
but for now i find
it's only in my dreams
If i could change the world
i would be the sunlight in your universe
you would think my love was really something good
Baby if i could change the world
if i could be king
even for a day
I'd take you as my queen
I'd have no other way
and our love will rule
in this kingdom we've made
till then i'll be a fool
wishing for the day
I like this song...and if i could change the world, i would change it according to almost everyone needs and mine as well. Not that i am selfish but yet it is impossible to create a perfect world and it truely won't exist. Perhaps in heaven it exists but how perfect it is i won't know till i die and if i will ever go to heaven. I weep for the pain and sorrow everytime i see one but there is nothing much we can do but to do as much as we can...am i confusing?Haha... God bless everyone else.
Forgive Me, For i love you
Forgive me for my sins that i hurt you,
Forgive me for being not good,
For everyday i cry in my heart,
Hoping you will take me back,
and be happy together again.
Though i have hurt you so much,
I too have been hurt,
carrying the heavy burden of guilt,
Just as you carry your pain everyday.
Let us smile at each other once more,
Giving as another path to happiness,
For if i commit the same fault,
Let me be damned to carry your pain.
If i can change one thing in the world, let it be that everyone has a pair for each other...
If i can choose to be someone, i wish i am someone who can contribute a lot to society...
If i can choose my dream job, I want to be a chef.
If i can change one thing in me, it would be my impatience and logical sense of thoughts...
If i can be an animal, i choose to be a killer whale travelling in the vast ocean or the mighty Eagle soaring the skies...
If i were an instrument, i want to be the grand piano..touched by magninifent hands...
If i can be born with a religion, i will choose islam but i will be in China by then..
If i can be an element, let me be the water that flows around... and save the thirst. . .
If i can turn back time, i want to change everything and be brave.
If i were to spend my life in solitude, i will dedicate my life to the orphans and be their father...
If i can have siblings, i want to have a lot of sisters looking after me..
If i can talk to God, i'm sure i'll whine a lot...haha..sorry God.
If miracles do happen, i wish my parents well and all good things that can happen
If i can be a material, i want to be a furniture..
If i can travel all around the world, it would be the best thing to do in life...
If i choose to be a landscape or scenery, i want to be the calm mountain with lakes, waterfalls and trees...
If i can choose to be a charater in a movie, Patch Adams might be a good one but hell i don't want to look like him. Forrest Grump is not bad either...haha...juz joking.
If there ever was the if, i won't be writing all the if here...
Sign forever with thoughts...Louis
Love flower, you are the love of my life,
A scent from you sends me wild with passion,
Will you let me look after you and water you everyday?
So you will not wilt but bloom forever in my heart...
This was written to my ex. Shes a sweet gal. But well there is still a beautiful friendship though we got separated. ^_^
I do not love you as if you were salt-rose, or topaz,
or the arrow of carnations the fire shoots off.
I love you as certain dark things are to be loved,
in secret, between the shadow and the soul.
I love you as the plant that never blooms
but carries in itself the light of hidden flowers;
thanks to your love a certain solid fragrance,
risen from the earth, lives darkly in my body.
I love you without knowing how, or when, or from where.
I love you straightforwardly, without complexities or pride;
so I love you because I know no other way
than this: where I does not exist, nor you,
so close that your hand on my chest is my hand,
so close that your eyes close as I fall asleep.
Got this poem written by Pablo Neruda and it is taken from the movie Patch Adams.So sad and powerful... I love this movie too.
The many names of Louis....
In today's blog i'll be listing out the names ppl have called me over the years which i find some amusing,irritating,annoying and some...nice.Well here's a list as far as i could remember.
Boyboy- before i got my christian name Louis...
Lowik- pronouned by an aunt of mine.
Louie- correct pronounciation..only Cindy and Wafie called me tht.
Louis- new friends and most of my friends lo...
Lou- called by Bar where her full name is Barizah..hehe..
Brother Lou- Melissa called me tht and i like ppl calling me
Brother Lou...makes me feel like someone powerful haha..
Rabbit teeth-By Aziz and some Smmgies..due to my tiger teeth
Si Panjang- by Elbert Tee aka King Kong.
Chao ren(superman)- by my tuition teacher who finds difficulty in pronouncing my chinese name "zhao Yin"
chang ying (fly)- some ppl teased me but i knw a ger called Miss Fly too..haha..
lau ying (old yn'eagle)- started by who i dunno..Alisa liew is tht last person who called me tht juz a few months ago...
Ah Yin- by Khalid and i hate it most as it sounds like a girl
Wong Jau - by my indian physics teacher...T_T
Wong - by smmgies
Wong Wong - a repetition by some idiots
Wong Fei Hong - by smmgies..
Course rep- by some of my EL classmates who don't know my name kua..
Louiseeeee - by someone who wants me to do them a favour..haha..
ko(h)(meaning brother) - by my dear godsisters where i love them for calling me tht.
Jau Yn(in chinese as well)- by my old friends.d only one who called me Jau Yn in English is Hidayat.
Louis wong son of Philip Wong - by Kuan Wee Leong..yes i mentioning your name there..haha...
Daddy - By Jun Jun, a dear friend who somehow think i got the fatherly figure feel.
****** - adeler...haha...
That's it!
Poem to a lost friend/lover...
O beautiful maiden where are you?
I remember once when we were young,
Running around at the playground,
Chasing you, and you chasing me.
Till one day we had to part,
to a place unknown and
to where i don't care
for i'm only eleven.
Not knowing what is love,
or even friendship,
for these things are nothing,
to a silly child like me.
A decade walks away and now,
so suddenly i dreamt of you,
and remembered the first time,
the first time we kissed.
A memory once lost,
and remembered once again.
for what reasons i don't know,
but i realized i missed you.
Days and nights passed,
you still visit my dreams...
Have you went to heaven?
Or will you come back again?
Will you still remember me?
For i do and i just realized
you are precious to me
like a lollipop to a young boy.
If we were to meet again,
you will be the second happiest person,
and i will the happiest person in the world.
For now i realized i'm in love with you...
Composed in less than 30 minutes, inspired by my weird dreams,past and experience. Dedicated to someone i once known. Hoping to see her once again..but knowing it will never come true. Just wishing her a happy and joyful life... for i know how hard her life must have been. With tears and prayers,
Jau Yn.
Five more installment of haiku.
Scents lost, sights undiscovered,
How pitiful it is-
the only flower in the world
Sexy Shoe,
Worn by a beautiful maiden,
Wouldn't it be nice if i were that shoe?
Floating endlessly in the air,
blown furiously by the wind,
the lonely dandelion.
Thrusting my mighty sword,
the seed is struck,
a life is created.
Statue of Venus,
immaculate and incomplete,
the beauty of flaws.
-inspired my Elizabeth Jennings.
-credited to the great poets i've studied.
I just realized i composed only one haiku...paiseh eh... i thought i composed more..must be composing with when i'm in my bed thinking and later dreaming it putting in my blog..aiks ..anyway composing three more in 4 minutes... sometime i just read Avila's.
Night comes the cockroach,
With a mighty step-
I squashed it.
A flock of colourful birds,
Flying smoothly ...
Like a disfigured rainbow.
Daylight ends, night enroaches.
Like a blanket,
covering the fearful child.
Sunshine penetrating my skin,
Hot and burning,
I'm baked.
Hm~ i particularly liked the disfigured rainbow... actually it's a descriptive essay i wrote last year in EAS and Daniel says it's bloody good... first and probably the best compliment i got. Hell now i wonder where i put that descriptive essay. Now regretting it where i misplace it...haihz~ lucky i still remember a part of what i composed.
Family made us brothers and sisters,
Destiny made us friends...
Friendship divides our sorrows, multiplies our joys
A friend is someone who knows the song in your heart and sings it back when you have forgotten the word
You can't make someone love you, all you can do is to be the person who can be loved, the rest is up to the person o realize your worth.
A minute to have a crush on someone, a day to love that someone but yet a lifetime to forget that someone.
As long as we have memories, yesterday remains.As long as we have hopes, tomorrow awaits.As long as we have friendship, today is beautiful.
Friendship is like pieces of puzzle,
once you lost them, it will never be completed again.
Just wanna let you know that,
You're one of the pieces that i can't afford to lose.
How long will we be friends?i hope...
as long as the stars twinkle in the sky,
as long as angels there stay up high,
till the oceans run dry,
and till the day...i die
This blog was composed when i was inspired by one of Avila Geraldine's photo. Thanks to you if you happen to read this. ^_^
The joy of taking photos are priceless and it felt just the same way when your looking at your work and the work of other photographers. Why is it so? Armed with your camera and every shot you take is priceless in a sense that you will never take that same shot again. The smile of the baby girl..."snap!"..and you won't get the same expression again. Just like the one in Avila's photo where someone took it. Whoever took that photo... that person's skill or "accident" deserves a praise. Photos taken are indeed never the same unless your taking still life but yet with different angles and lighting it still produces different effects.
Oh i miss that joy again...Reason? No budget to buy films and later develop the photos . . . T_T. Somemore i carry an old Nikon compact camera and a mini VGA keychain camera. And my Nikon is more than ten years old... bought during the year 1996 in Labuan. Now i'm waiting to strike lottery and buy myself a Digital SLR camera...depending how much i won... or else i had to buy the analog SLR... And if i do won a lot of "Ka ching!" I'll order Ben Hall's photos! I got a mag.."Digital Camera Magazine" Third Issue and I LOVE IT!!! Anyone wants to borrow it?
Haiku is a form of traditional Japanese poetry which i found it last year. Very interesting and i can be a haiku composer...haha.Haiku poems are also beautiful...if u know how to appreciate of course! Well below i'll post some haiku from the internet giving credits to those who composed it.By the way, Haiku normally have three lines only ya...
Green frog,
Is your body also
freshly painted?
An old pond!
A frog jumps in-
The sound of water.
The first soft snow!
Enough to bend the leaves
Of the jonquil low.
Covered with the flowers,
Instantly I'd like to die
In this dream of ours!
Right at my feet -
and when did you get here,
snail?
I kill an ant
and realize my three children
have been watching.
After reading all these Haiku...it seems to create a big picture with details with only 3 lines. Very powerful imagry.Let me try one...
Looking over the horizon,
A light creeps out-
Sun rises...
Hm~ not bad eh...
Juz remembered wht Mr Derbyshire say during one of our ELT classes... religion in a way is like buying an insurance for life. Come to think of it clearly...it is like buying insurance in a way... we worship this God and that God... so many versions of God but yet the problem is which "insurance" is better?Sometimes i wonder why we or maybe juz me hav to bear the burden of making decisions. All of us worship the God for the same purpose...blessings in life..but yet some are doubted with different ideologies.That's me lor... Looked through a number of insurance and finally got a better insurance..haha..ahem..but too many terms and conditions.However it's fair and necessary.Oh God...when will i strike jackpot? Or will i ever? Haha..money is all in my mind...not that i am money minded but i need it! To help lessen burdens...maybe my time notchet come....
Starless Night, got the name from a song played by Glay which is my fav band! Yeah GLAY ROCKS!Haha but many don't approve it cos it sounds a bit like GAY but i dun care anyway as long as i like it. Adding the word Night it becomes STARLESS NIGHT which i accidently composed it refering to the many nights where i don't see stars at all.Many people are fascinated by the beauty of stars... the twinkling effect perhaps and just so happen i like the song "twinkle twinkle little star, how i wonder what you are, up above the sky so high like an angel in the sky" and it reminds me a story about Caroline where i compose it in form 5.Cried when i compose the story and it seems that i lost that beautiful story of mine... but the story is still in my heart though. Not a love story well it is love between a godbro and sis relationship. Sad ending but the effect is there.Tears coming out indeed. And i los my touch in writing a very long time ago.HOW SAD! Anyway back to the stars... why are stars so...fascinating? Many used it in poetry and sort of worship it. I gaze to the night sky and think ... and the bloody mosquito juz suck my blood.Shito...Prefer the moon.Hm~an inspiration juz come in...lets see...
Oh Moon, Oh Moon
The goddess of the night,
Shining a hope to every lost traveller,
The stars like angels twinkling in the sky,
Bringing joy to the sad traveller.
WOW! Can't believe i just wrote that...come to think of it i've written a lot of poems but never kept them. Just write and let it wonder on the floor swept away by the Makcik...T-T..aiyo...who knows limpeh can win a Nobel Prize in Literature.Haha..T_T AHEM! Back to the star and moon thingy...the proposed shaped of the star strangely attracts girls and i wonder why and it function as a sign of success also.Hm~ maybe i should stick glow in the dark stars on my ceiling so have hav endless nights featuring green stars. Talking bout stars it reminds me of a friend in ELT.Liz...why ah? Oh yeah, her pencil box got star patterns.haha...Well i remember i used to make those little paper stars and gave to everyone in class... come to think of it i'm a bit childish le... but now i'll be doing it once more perhaps...well guess thats the... END OF TODAYS BLOG!
Songs from Ayumi Hamasaki..shes da best!
A song for xx
Why am I crying?
Why am I lost?
Why did I stop?
Please tell me
When will I grow up?
How long can I stay a child?
Where have I come running from?
Where am I running to?
I had no place to live. I couldn't find one.
I don't know if I could have any hope for the future.
They always said I was a strong child.
They praised me, saying "you must be strong to not cry."
I didn't want those words at all.
So I pretended not to understand.
Why are you laughing?
Why are you by my side?
Why are you leaving me?
Please tell me.
When did you become strong?
Since when have you felt weakness?
How long must you wait
for the day you understand to come?
The sun is rising. I must go soon.
I can't stay in the same place forever.
You will someday be betrayed by your trust in people.
I thought it was the same as being rejected.
At the time I didn't have that kind of strength.
I definitely knew too much.
They always said I was a strong child.
They praised me, saying "you must be strong not to cry."
The more people said things like that,
the more even laughing became agony.
I was born alone. I'll go on living alone.
I thought that surely that kind of life is appropriate.
Dearest
It would be nice if
we could throw away everything
but what is most important;
Reality is just cruel
Whenever I close my eyes
you're there,
smiling
Ah- I hope your smiling face
is with me until the day
I fall into eternal sleep
Are all people sad?
They are forgetful creatures...
For that which you should love,
for that which gives love:
give it your all
Ah- when we met
we were so awkward
We've taken the long road;
we've hurt each other along the way
Ah- I hope your smiling face
is with me until the day
I fall into eternal sleep
Ah- when we met
we were so awkward
We've taken the long road,
but we've finally arrived
Seasons
This year, another season has passed.
Memories have become faded.
The border between my vague dream and
reality has become blurred.
Even so, the dream I once told you of
had not a single lie in it.
La La-i
Today was fun,
and tomorrow will surely be fun as well.
"These days will continue forever,"
or so I thought at the time.
Throughout the endless days I felt
as if something was missing.
I blamed it on these unnatural times,
and just gave up.
La La-i
Today was very sad,
and even if I cry tomorrow,
someday the time will come that I can laugh
and remember the time we had together.
How much time must pass by,
in this finite existence of ours?
We'll live in the now,
and what will we find?
I love playiing with words and poetry and below are two of my poems. Just put here and let anyone have a read ><.
Lao Ko de words for Xiao Mei,
Through letters we have known each other
And friendship is tied as the pen is set down.
By pen and paper we write away,
the things and feelings we want to say.
And quickly and strangely we turn not to lovers,
But to something more special,
that we each other don't have.
That is the love between a brother and sister.
For years we wrote about our lives,
Our happiness and sadness we shared.
Quarrels and anger too befall on us,
that shattered my heart into pieces.
But yet the bond is too close
that we seek forgiveness and love again.
We have also let our feelings show,
and soon we grow to care and love more.
I am so glad that destiny brought us together
And i am so sad not to care and understand you more at times.
We have so far never met face to face
And this day will be the greatest gift for us.
Where love and tears are tears of joy,
Bringing two siblings together.
Happiness is one word i can feel,
and thank you is another that i can say.
My dearest godsister, i love you.
And i hope if another life exists,
I hope i can be a true brother and love you more,
Pampering you, bullying you, taking care of you and loving you.
Through words this is all i can write,
Thank you, thank you and thank you very much
And i love you, i love you, i love you very much.
From me to you...
These are words written from me to you,
composed to entertain and make you say" Aw..this Louis"
And make you laugh for a while and continue reading down.
Isn't it wonderful from how our friendship is made?
Looking you at first glance is full of mystery
and it turns into surprises when we say "HI"
And as we get close to each other,
our whispers and shyness changed to something monstrous,
that is throwing words at each other and shouting " Hoi!"
Not to forget to tease and poke you...
One day we will part and we will meet again a few years later,
Anw now we will again compete with each other,
saying my son is smarter than you are....
and my daughter is more beautiful than yours...
All these might be a bit frustrating,
but thats what makes friendship fun...
With my last and most sincere words,
I type " Thank you"
Composed by Louis with humour and sincere.
Inspired by Karen mui mui
Opening ceremony
*cuts ribbon*
* fireworks *
No idea how to start off my blog but well ~ Hope i can pour all my stuff here... share experiences, ideas, thoughts, feelings and whatever i can put here. ><
*cheers*
