Just some random pics. Was at Sunway hotel nights ago selling wine for charity. I thought business was good at first. turn out that we only sold 10 bottles of wine out of 100 ... But anyway, at least the environment was very well since it's a five star hotel ^^
Me n my housemates went to this Fish & Co some nights ago at One U. Average meal. Had i don't know what it's called and the rest had fish and chips. Meal was decent enough and the drinks were satisfying also. It's not often we had a good meal together... ^^
I've been owning Panasonic Lumix FZ28 for quite some time now. Months perhaps? I love my camera a lot tho it's just a advanced point and shoot camera uncomparable to a DSLR. But it's a SUPERZOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOM.
t's been a long time that i didn't update my blog and write about anything. I'm just busy. depressed and totally lost my senses. I'm even beginning to felt a bit "demanding" or "singaporean" since i work for ocbc. Lots of changes took place. Some good, others bad. Late had an addiction to lemons and coconut drinks XD. No idea why. Hehe... Not been eating much as i used too. Need to lose a lot of weight in two months time or else my dear hua mu lan would slice me. Hehe...:x
Been travelling a lot too. Being a domestic tourist running here and there to have a look whts so speacial about Malaysia...
This is a part of my baby ASUS.
My laptops core. The hardisk.
What happened?
It broke down today.
when i got back from somewhere.
my baby was crying for help then. screaming painfully as it thawed my cold heart.
How could i leave you lonely there?
All was lost now.
Those memories, those images...
This is the saddest day in my life :(
Im free tonight. and alone too. Coz everyone went back to their hometown and im here wondering tiredly. My hippo was busy tonight to layan me. lots of work. Hope she goes through it smoothly. It's a hell lot of stress and tiredness too.
My work has been fine. My trainer talked to me just now. He told me that tho i was weak, i have atitude to do work and continue. I felt proud :) but sad that no one to share that moment of relieve. Tried to call that someone since noon... but..
It's been rather long that i didn't write. In English particulary. Everyday i've been using bank terms. Kinda tired and i felt like a robot. Credit cards specialist. Singaporeans. LOL.
Have i been better or worse? God knows.
Tomorrow is my favourite day of the year. BON ODORI.
LOVEEEEEEEEEEE IT !!!!
Hope to have some fun tomorrow ! XD
breakfast there was a rip off and they dun even had fried eggs!!!!! The morning was quiet... perhaps the last time we saw each other... some but not all.. haha. Cos i still meet some of them.... wasn't unhappy or so.... maybe cos....
Well a few glimpse of the pics i took... bye bye...
Went to PD for a class trip... tutorial to be exact.Sad that some didn't make it. Siew, Melissa, Jessica.. hey... why? Had an enjoyable night but a few of pinches in my heart too.... anyway, another memory to be kept behind my head...
A hearty meal at Cinnamon at one world hotel. It costs around rm90 to each of us and wowee ~ a good bargain. Enjoyed a lot there. Took helllllll lotsa pics. And i will never eat fresh oyesters anymore. Don't really understand what is so good about it. Haha.. i'd rather eat bass, cheese and those that i really enjoyed. Went to watch Wolverine after the meal. SYOK BANAR. Eh seh... not used brunei language for a long while. It' a good movie to watch. Effects are great too. Went home quite late. . .
This was one month ago. Been busy and tired to upload my pics and blog some crap out of it. Well that's just it. Had a fun time at starbucks and alter ate at fireman. Time just moved so fast. SO many pains and tears i had through during my time in UTAR. I couldn't say it's the best or worst time but surely, im not really happy with my "life" there... or do i really have a life? People are so full of ego, hypocrites and so... and soo... finally im outta there. There is only a handful of memories that i have that i can treasure the rest... forgetting them slowly. I remembered how i used to be moody and sad often. Goin home is like goin to hell. Thank god that i got a part time job that lasted for 6 months to keep my mood occupied. At the same time, i matured and developed a new skill and expertise? Wine. Haha.. Thank you Denise The Wine Shop. I learned a lot there.
Now im working at Cyberjaya. Yes the pressure is more intense. More stressful. But i am able to enjoy it more better. Just go there, work, do my best and leave that day happy. Night time is my free time from now on.. except that these few week i had to study for my work but after a while, i should be fine. THo travelling home is another hell... 2 hours... fuck. but well.... that's life. Dun plan to move there tho...
and so here ends my story...
It's my bday yesterday. A surprise that my housemates got me a cake. Touched. Before that a dear friend celebrated for me. It wasnt really a fabulous day. But i appreciated those who did things to me for my bday ^^. Bought myself an expensive present XD
Had a hard time adjusting my life. Had to get used to it to the loneliness.
Watched a video by Leong today in his blog...learn this. If you failed 100 times, try 100 times again. Keep on trying again and don't give up. If you did, do you think you will get up again?
and another was an advice by my teacher, it's just that everything is over and i had to restart a new life... Its a new world and you gotta move on louis..
It's sunday and it's my last day of the so called freedom i had cos tomorrow i be starting to work. Travel all the way to cyberjaya took about1.30 hour. Had to wake up about 5.30 every morning now to prepare n travel. Tough and tiring journey but well, they paid me well and i gotta sacrifice well too. Probably around june or july i guess financial problems would start to ease now as i can help my family :) Kinda cried when i got the job and of course, a lot of my friends who knew how much my pay was was kinda :WAH.......... top secret here. XD
Wish me luck tomorrow. Not been blogging for a month too le. Wonder would i have time to do so still.
Alas... my academic life ends here. Don't know if it was a happy ending or sad... 3 years just went by like this and now when you recall the past... what is it all about? I have mixed feelings tho. happy and sad. Sad cos well... can't see dear friends anymore... Happy...well to quote from someone,..cant wait to get away from those pathetic faces. True. So tempted to put their fucking names there but well.Spare them la....
Goin to have an interview next month. Hope i can get the job. Gotta brush up some of my skills too. The pain of working life is here and well, gotta struggle to it and make some things come true.
Sigh. Suddenly want to vent my anger here
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To this two fucking guys. FUCK YOU. CURSE YOU.
No i won't pray for your death but i pray for your sufferings.
Let everyday be a mess to you. A torture. If there is a chance, i'll skin you alive. Break your bones with a hammer inch by inch and i'll pull your hair out once by one. And what pain cud it be if i'll kick your balls every few hours? and oh another form of pain, i'll stick some sharp steel under your nails and let it bleed. and oh i will pull ur nails slowly too XD. and why not let scorpions sting you around? and dogs barking you? afterball being scared is far more worse than expecting a pain. and last i shall put worms into your ears. and let u whine in pain.
All for hurting someone. This is a nightmare i hope you get every night.
and oh, i hope you will be raped.
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i'm still working in denise now. be leaving soon with a small amount of money. Hope i will strive well next month and be the best of everything. Will i do my masters or continue studying again? i don't know. just hope things will be alright.
Not been blog seriously for months and i seem to lost touch of my composure. FInally it has come to a stage where i had to make choices. By the end of this april. Life's gonna get serious and critical and imma going to step into a new phase of life. Just that i had some troubles on where to go and what to do. Earlier, everything was planned well. But somehow something else struck me and i asked myself.... are you confident? are you sure? Many things swirl into my mind and i dun even know what i can really do. It's money that bugs me a lot. Got parents and bro to take care and my own future.
I'm only 22. coming 23. most may see this as a "still young" age. but .. maybe im just too ambitious or had high expectations in my life? And i just keep asking myself that shud i go back to brunei or something. Brunei used to flourish well.. but now.. it's not as it is. A lot of things are more expensive than malaysia here too.
what do i really want? Why do i had to go through this journey alone?
A lot of my friends.. most of them will be playing around after their studies. Kinda envious cos, i dun seem to have any line to follow and play through. All im worried is money and getting a job and those kinda stuff.
What to do? I was born in this life.And i want to change my life. But i know it is going to be hard...
It began one saturday, ding dong. Some malay guy shouted my name and left a huge box outside my door. I peeked. I gasped. I panic. IT'S MY CAMERA FROM UK !!! So happy. but i was stunned a while tho. Opened the parcel and there it was Fujifilm. I was like huh???? NOOOOOOOOOOOOOO She bought the wrong camera !!!!!!!!!!!!!! I sweated, cold air creeped around my neck. i opened up the box. A sense of relief came. My lumic was inside and YAYYYYYYYYYYYYY
THANKS FARAH ABDULLAH XD XD
And here is a pic i took playing with the focusing. XD
Unhappy today
Angry today
Pissed off.
No one is around for me today. Felt....
Headache still here.
Hand in assignment le but still worried bout some other assignments still $ of them.
Angry with this debu-bitch.Thinking that animal is so geng. Only know how to bully bully bully.
Why didn't i fight back? Voice back?
Guilty.
How can i bear more? Today when talking i can even felt the sharpness in my voice.
Evenhough im dead tired and busy, i still cared. But i didn't even get a sms :( sad.
headache. But i still stay put. Don't care. Just let the pain go bombom in me.
Had a lousy meal. Looked at my tummy. go die la.
Might go hunger strike for a week plus or so.
Depression. Thinking too much.
Why do i always end up with rubbish?
Had a bad day. got honked again. Almost went straight face to face with a vehicle. I lost my senses a lot. . .
Mum, dad. Miss you. T_T
Brunei, i wish i could go back but den again, its not goin to be a place that i may be happy with. The bad memories. I'll go back there one day. Work. Earn. Back to Msia again.
Going to graduate soon. Happy and yet sad.
Girl:Slow down, i'm scared.
Guy: No, this is fun.
Girl: No it's not. Please it's too scary!
Guy: Ten tell me you love me.
Girl: Fine, i love you. Slow down!
Guy: Now give me a BIG hug.
Girl:*hugs him*
Guy: Can you take my helmet off and put it on yourself? It's bugging me
Girl: Alright, now slow down
Guy: i love you babe..
Girl: i love you too.noe please slow down. pleaseeee
(in the paper next day)
A motorcycle had crashed into a building because of a brake failure. two people were on it and only one survived.
The truth was that halfway down the road, the guy realized that his brakes broke.But he did not want to ler the girl know. instead he had her say she loved him and felt her hug one last time., then he had her wear his helmet so she would live even though it meant tht he would die...
I got this from my godsis. cant copy n paste from her blog so i had to type it all. JOREEN !. Hehe. it's a sad story . . . touching. How many would sacrifice so much for someone they love? i know i would. the one i loved know i would. She call me 'silly' and "little piggy" often. Loved her a lot too. I know that i might not be together with her. But i still wish it would happen. Love, true love. it's so hard to earn. I would sacrifice for her. Even if she did not want too, i would still love her, take care of her, her parents even they are never my in laws or so... to what extent can u take ur love to lengths? Mine, i cant measure it. God knows. I went to so much text. I went to so many pains n troubles. and im still standing strong. and wait... :)
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It's been almost a month since i last blog. Been very busy with lots of things. Academics and work.It had also been an emotional month for me tho. To begin with, lets start with my Uni. Well it's been tough since i've been stuck with people that i can't communicate or cooperate with. It's really awful and hard and emotions just stirred up. Been trying hard to make things better but it justs get harder. Talk here and talk there and in the end everything just pushes back to me. My stresses level peaked to the certain extent that im restless and pimples grew too. Been trying hard, been pressured. Graduation is coming soon and what can i do? Will i get a good job soon or will i be in deep trouble? i Have options tho i being going to kampar and be a tutor, IF they are willing to hire me. Second i will be going back to Brunei and teach. Which will i choose? Hopefully, i would get to work in the Brunei government. Then i will be super happy and richer by 2 years compared to if i were working in Malaysia XD. But then, it was just perhaps a wish that may be far reached. Nevertheless i may be in trouble again. Well least i still get to work temporarily in Denise for the time being.
Work? Aight. Lots to lose. Every month i would be losing money. Why? Cos its either those wines get missing or i break em. T_T
My emotions are swinging lately. My temper is getting awful.But i need to keep it behind me, behind my heart and held those pains that are stabbing at me. You know how it feels? Sometimes you just felt like your a "criminal" while ur not. Imagine been accused of murder or something and there your waiting your turn at the deathrow. Stress and you sure know that you're not gonna die but the stress is just still there. How long should i wait?3 months?
CURSE YOU. Woman.Is there shit in your brains?
Still, the accident i had last month haunts me.just everytime i walk past that road, it reminded me of that accident. Just everytime a car honks me, a motor zooms by, it haunts me. and with accidents i see, with ppl die,it haunts me more. I wish i could move and not see the road again, cos its still haunting me at times....
Just yesterday morning. Around 7.45 am around my condo. I had an accident. Can't remember anything that happened except waking up semi-consciously on the road. Mei Ling just happened to be there when she saw me. Said i was lying in the middle of the road and the bicycle was somewhere and people were dragging me to the pavement. Then i guess i must have woke up then. Cos i was tryin to take out my phone and call my parents. I was closing my eye. and bloody hell then i realize i didn't have any credit. Mei Ling called from the otherside of the road then i was lucky she was somehow there.A lot of things i cant remember then. Like she was there helping me up and it was me locking the bicycle to the chain instead of her. I tot it was her doing it.
Well i think after chainin the bicycle i was sent ot UM Hospital Trauma and Emergency Center.Had a two jabs. Arm and my Butt. Ouch. I was lucky that my balls are still intact having to ride on a bicycle.
Spent two hours in agony at the ward. Keep holding my head. Had a big swell on my head and a lot of tissue torn. arms and legs. Ouch. Even walking is a pain now.
Was discharged around 2 pm. Still went to uni to show em im alright :) was happy that a lot cared for me :) :) :)
Woke up with more pains in the upper part body.
I'm alive now. Glad and relieved. A bit guilty too. Thank God im here again. Its a very traumatic and scary experience. But i got through it and stayed strong.
Went to Amuleto by Crystal Jade Last month bring my darling for lunch :) Had a great time there. Food was great but just a bit oily. Supposedly we are to try that chocolate fountain but HELL SUMTHING WENT WRONG WITH THE MACHINE AND IT WASN'T SERVED THAT DAY.
Bad Luck.
But still we had a lovely lunch :).
Went shopping around Sg Wang, Times Square and Midvalley today. Had a healthy lunch at Ah Yee herbal restaurant. A bit pricy but its delicious tho. Got two Giordano T.A scarf and a shoe. Spend like almost rm200. First time i spend with my hard earned money.
DAMN HAPPY TODAY. HAPPY! HAPPY! HAPPY!
LA LA LA LA !!!
Oh i love my scarf and Giordano.
HAPPY !!!!!!
Ate a lot today too. This Tiramisu Ice blend from little taiwan. NOT GOOD AT ALL!
Then em... thinks that's all. XD
Night now :)
