Was out having brunch with Janice today somewhere in Sentosa. I had this stewed duck and pork and she had... er.. i forgot the name but i know it was delicious tho. XD Nothing much today except we chatted and stuff.... she kept on asking me to go to see her singing... sponser me rm10 still i don't want...keke.
This was taken sometime... ago and finally Cindy gave me the pics. I ate Meatball Spag and pumpkin soup. forgot what the rest ate. >< The pumpkin smells more like curry too. Oh that's matther hiding shyly XD
Finally i've done all my assignments. It was kinda tougher this semester where i got to tackle two alone. Worse i had the most personal sinful act. FORGET AND BEING CARELESS. Ouch, that hurts a lot to one of my academic research. It was a rushy period but still i'm not satisfied with my work. Well, what you do is what you get so better be prepared with it.
I wonder when will my blogspot be okay. It's been a month that my blog was damaged... well its the server actually. 2 porblems encountered. one is that my Internet Explorer cant see my new update tho the posts are up. My other frens can see my new updates but i cant. T_T boo hoo. The second problem was i can't even see the new entris of my blog either. All my friends blog were one month outdated and i missed out a lot of new entries i guess. Esp from Jestina's one. Wonder when will this problem be fixed. Can't blog or read any blog due to this. ISH!!! Anyone how to fix it let me know ah!!!
Yesterday was a release of pressure for me with a personal secret friend.Can't believe i did it again... but well the dam is overflowed and need to be let go sooner or later. Many things and problems poured out. Thanks friend for your help. Appreciate you forever.
Bad news just struck me this morning. Can't go back Brunei. Farm production was terrible and just can't afford to go back. :( Been missing home for quite sometime now. I wonder hows life ot my family since great uncle died. Hope is soul is at peace.bit sad that i can't make it home to pay my last respects to him. Life is indeed unfair but i do believe that one must suffer to finally reach happiness or so-called success.
My tummy is still growing. Gettin fat. Been on diet for quite some time tho.
The rest of my stories remain tut tut tut
Was out watching movie w em few nights ago. SHUTTER, the so called "horror" movie and it wasn't horrifying at all. Even the ghost was hot...:X. Megumi Nakamura. and there after she possess our minds for a couple of weeks. Look at the above...victims... Den we head on to Kim Gary. The meal wasn't so bad but a bit too oily .I had this Norwegian Salmon Seafood baked rice. Ok ler... i love that small octopus... XD
This is a song i picked up from my memory... been looking for this for a few years also since 1997. ^^
I'm waiting for your love...
since the day i crave your name...
painfully in my heart...
never forgetting you.
Days have been better,
with the mouse becoming the tiger,
mind becoming mature,
and the heart growing pure.
Sacrifice he made,
doing silly things he never thought of,
Singing songs for passion to her,
Growing flowers in her heart...
Those silent tears i let go,
each drop like a diamond,
dried with tomorrow's happiness..
hoping someone would notice it...
I'm waiting for your love...
How long do i have to wait?
With each day passing by,
I felt like years had gone...
Oh dearest flower of all flowers,
what commission you want?
that will give you confidence
and later surrender under my wing...
Strength i will give you,
confidence is there,
purity i have,
love is endless...
Would you embrace my love?
I'm waiting for your love...
Was at a eating place called "ming tian" the other nite. Ordered shark fin noodle and this so called midnight blueberry lady. Looks good but doesn't taste good at all.
Lonely Lights... if anyone can feel the emptiness in me...it may appear bright but how long can the light shine?
How many steps does it takes to win your heart?
How many steps must i take to reach your heart?
It's endless and tiring....
But i won't give up...
Finally got a hair cut!!! Well... somehow there isn't much difference cos well i juz snip a bit of here and there.>< Finally!!!!!!!!!! a new shoe i bought from Chow Yang Pasar malam. God knows how much my shoe got torned with holes and the colours even faded... Went out with CIn, V and CC with her man. Had the asam laksa which was great. then i had my favourite yam cake, a nyonya dumpling and thie green tea bun. Thy had this whatchamacalit big size bun... Leong, if he were there he would joked that it was the size of a decent XXXXX. Wish you were there dude. Haha...
Was out few nights ago with my roomate to pudu,Kl getting his bus ticket back to Ipoh. After that we went a ride looking for a famous foodstall... which kinda serves international cuisines... well we didn't manage to get there and guess where we ended? CHERAS!! and i was like How the hell we got there? to my brunei friends reading this... it was like going from Gadong to Tungku Link but you ended up in Jerudong or Muara... =_= well caught some pics along the roads of pudu and had Prawn mee for dinner instead..
Was out last night with my housemates gyming and sinning later at Murni. Had the famous so called Roti Hawaii. It was great. The gals had this spag which is so big with 5 big balls on the plate... and one had this Mee Raja. Big appetite for em that night. Met up dr teh while exercising there. I also had a group practice of this brazillian martial art called Capoeira. Fun and i heard my left foot joints, the muscle to say. The warm up is kinda pain too where u gotta twist here n there. Heres a video of how it looks like profesionally. As usual, i went on cam-whoring.. hiak hiak...
A bit sad when i heard a friends decision... but i'll respect it... ^^
Just went out with a friend Siau Koon today helping with her assignments where had to go and talk with people and record stuff. Suddenly was tempted to join this offer by a gym and i was like WAAAAAAAAA good offer... but boh lui :(
ANyway, lingered aroung SEC 14 for quite sometime and yay finally got free lunch from SK. Thanks buddy!!! Guess who i bump today? First Evelyn and later Charine and her bf... so ngam... hope tonite kena toto lo... hehe
Sometime i don't know what i really have... things are just beyond my reach, my thoughts... shattered dreams and wishes.. will they ever come true? Maybe sometimes it's good to get hurt for a while and this just motivates you for a change... a strategically good change... maybe i'm doing the right thing, maybe i'm not... Just let time play... Cos maybe there would be a result in the end, otherwise just let me be another idiot once more like owez do...
YESHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!! I'm healed and OKAY finally. Presentations were done except that my BM got delayed till week 12 cos my lecturer gonna get married. That means no class for 2 weeks. YEAH!!! Sat and sunday which is tomorrow gonna be great... will use those two days to the full potential.. cos i got sum assignments working alone...
today started to think too much again when i same a fellow classmate dropped to tears due to the mention of something... then this person beside me said somemore thing which made me even more ARRRRRRRRRRRRR!!!!! i already forgot yet it was remembered... sigh.. it was such a pain...
Really hate it when i had to see myself in such state... where is the colour?
Had a recording of myself when i was presenting today... honestly... not being vain but i didn't know tht i look so cute when i smile :X... guess i shud smile more... ><
Sometimes there are things we do where it can be right at wrong at the same time. Right for us and wrong for them and vice versa. How wrong can one thing be? Harms them or just disagrees with them? And how right could one thing be? agrees with them so they are happy?
Well maybe lately i just done things i may think its wrong for myself but then... still i do it. Why? Well maybe the wrong this is the way out? Well sometimes its a choice and there is a way out but yet i choose to do it still. Maybe it's hard to explain... maybe there is no need to explain... i don't know. but i know i am happy with my decision because thought it may be wrong and make me suffer a bit... i don't care because i may be happier and glad now...
A bit tired of my life sometimes... many things i used to wish and do is beyong my reach now... things that i believe i can do but with a small careless mistake everything is gone gone down into the pits of miserables...
Sometimes it seems i have a choice, a way out to a happier choice but then maybe im just afraid... or maybe i just don't wish to cos it may have an impact... i don't know... haha... life is... full of ups and downs.
Sometimes what we want came too late when we have finally decided to let go. Argh and this happens two times in my personal life. Wonder why it had to be that way...
A challenge to me whether am i brave enough to make drastic decisions? Well see how... i still have time...
I'm waiting for my health to heal now. Once im healed... im out for a kill...
Been dreadfully sick today and it isn't getting any better... well it does improve a bit tho...today had cucumber and cheese sandwich for lunch and bihun for breakfast. And for dinner i'll had porridge and some vege i guess. I made that someone a lot angry today so i hope she would be cooling off by now. And well as she wouls say "not the first time ler" aiyok... well...it's funny how relationship works but i do appreciate this one. Hehe to "you" when you read this... erm, there may be ups and downs at times between us but there is no hard feelings rite? On and on i will try and improve myself ^_^
Was sitting at the back of the class today when suddenly a classmate whom i feared a lot suddenly turn back dramatically and said "LOUIS, ARE YOU OKAY ???" and i was like WTFFF!!! and it just made my health worser. I rather had no one caring for me than havin him care.... it's a pain in the heart...
and i REALLY DO HATE IT WHEN PPL LINKED ME TO HIM. Why d hell it must be me??? Nabe... go here or there always kena linked with things i don't like or hurtful. Can't just give me peace? Why don't you TRY to be me or take care of him since everyone just wished me to do it? Or is it that everyone just don't want their hands getting dirty so just pushed me down down and down...
I'm not angry cos that i should be the one doing it but i think everyone should be. I'm all round mentally tired and having the pains before... i know how it feels like. At home i have played my role where no one knows... but at least at uni let them play the role.
Maybe im wrong in some sense... or whatever it is... but i too am tired of some things and need a break...
Then yesterday some so-called "friend" said something hurtful... guess i'll never be satisfied if i put it down here... it hurts indeed when hearing those words and i was like wth are you thinking... can't just give me a chance or are you just so ****** to think?
Human nature is full of flaws ... some managed to change their ways ... some didn't... but one thing i do realize maybe is that how people work around me. Work as in function and behavior... sometimes i wonder should we be fakes or originals? But then more people tend to like fakes and are happier that way while the originals tend to be ditched at most times... i don't know...:(
things seems to be better with my absence... should have stop hopping around now...just make myself miserable... :(
Great Uncle passed away 2 nights ago when i was out celebrating with my friends. Nobody told me till the next day... i was a bit sad that i didn't talk to him much when he was alive... well there isn't much to talk tho... well past is past... he's somewhere in this world now... i do now know if he is a good person but he is a good person to my family....
Yesterday morning was a terrible day for someone too. My friend friend's roomate got raped by two men somewhere in sec 14. the closed down jaya area. It was really OMG when it happens to someone almost near you... furthermore it's a fellow student... things won't be fine for a rape victim but i prayed that she would be strong enough to endure the traumatic and mental pains...
And for those two men, i hope God may punish them severely...
It's kinda disgusting when these things happen ... and some how most of the flaws created in this world are by MEN. Sometimes i do feel ashamed when i know these kinda things. and i don't really understand why those men and the rest in this world choose to do evil things...
In my class... well i was labelled as "hamsap" or anything "porny" ... i don't really know why... but maybe it was just the way i talk or something. I'm a loyal breand fan of Playboy too. heheh.... well all in all i know im a decent guy, maybe thats enough. >< Decent as in i don't fool around or something...or hurt people purposely... and yeah i do watch porn... tell me which guy didn't watch porn?
6th of march and my budget dropped drastically... wth happened again? must be those delayed bills that killed me off or something. Life seems to get worser each day for me.... sigh... but i'll stay strong..
i felt something amiss this month... i don't know what but i know i'll be facing some hard obstacles to tackle. One thing to keep in mind, be strong and ignore... just focus on one sole thing and ignore the rest...
I'll be going back brunei in two months time... missed home dearly...T_T Dam sometimes i wonder why am i so emotional... have i just started to understand things? it's always worry this and that, think too much of this and that..
Enough of the blogging... started to have teary eyes again...
This is what i are today... had kolo mee for brunch at sec 17 which is quite delicious... the soup was big with a lot of pork organs in it. Then din ate much till night time at sentosa with my housemates. Had a big plate of hakka mee with tong sui and a wholemeal bbq pork. Tho i may be sick but my appetite is still huge... i eat most when i get sick.. just got news from my uncle that my great uncle passed away last night... a bit sad well... his time is up... may be rest in peace...
Been using my skills on artistic things lately. Playing with origami... above are some of my failed attempts. They dun look good but well... least i done something useful ^^
Out celebrating Kok Hau's and Charlene's birthday last night. It was a happy reunion except Alex is not around cos he was busy that day.... summore his place is very far. Happy Birthday to the two of them ^^
Had our dinner at Wong Kok. I had this lotus wrapped rice, charlene had pineapple fish and hot chocolate, ken win had this ice cream, wei ming had some rice i forgot whts the name while the others had baked cheese rice... my dish came the latest cos well... i always order complicated things...
after the dinner me and wei ming went home while the others go cineleisure to have some fun... a bit regret that i din go tho... well i'm quite happy that night ^^
