what happened is forgotten...
But another day brings a poison to hurt...
waiting to be forgotten tonight...
Sometimes we had to make choices and moves we don't want...
we all have choices but not everyone want to compromise...
because they fear...
i don't.
Lots of notes given today. hell its a lot to read.
It hurts.
Felt like a stupid idiot.
hate it.
It just HURTS.
T_T
I hate you Louis for being so weak.
Why can't you control yourself?
Sleep. And everything will be forgotten...
you shi hou hen sha.... bu... shi zhen sha...
ye bu zhi dao wei shem me...
xing hen tong
hen nan guo...
wo yuan beng dou mei you "gang"
gang ma wo you yau.....
zhen sha..
zao zhi dao... ye bu zhi dao..
zhen bu dong wei shem me you zhe me nan guo
kai xin bu kai xin. qu shui yi ge jiao... shem me dou me shi le ^^
jiu shuang shi yao pian ji zhi...
after the movies. went on biting here and there. Had sour cream with chives potato wedges and durian vanilla teppanyaki ice cream. I must say im so damn lucky that the japanese spring food fair was there. only once a year you know!!!! and i got a packet of japanese curry and kia huey got a lot of other stuffs too ^^
My 4th trip to the cinema. Was at home bored and nothing to do and a bit..... well was glad that Kia Huey suddenly asked me if i wanted to go to the cinema and watch Speed Racer. Woweee. Go make up straight away XD. Movie was blinding at first and its a bit too retro and colourful. Can say it was rather a pain to the since as the colours are rather too concentrated? Plot was okay and the soundtrack. Lovely. I cant really see the race running too except the last race . Well least im happy watching ^^. Went on cam whoring too. XD
Finally blogged about my trip to UM. First trip was with cindy and the second one there was koon following. It was really a HUGE place. a lot of space of freedom too. Food is cheap as well ^^ Don't think i may go there again... not much that i could find useful or.. maybe im too stupid to use the facilities...
I don't remember having any bestfriends then...still kept in touch with a few... missed Hui Yian d most. D gal directly just below me. Haha... cos hers dad a farmer too. I remember once the teacher asked if any family is a farmer. I rose my hand.
hm.. better dun remember somethings..
Woke up at a good time after my sleep. I so love my eye blinder! No bothers when my roomie on the lights in d middle of the night. Im quite sensitive u know.
Fixed my proposals a bit then off i go to the uni. Hot day and suddenly mr Edwin called to get me to photostat things. Uni's xerox station was full so i had to walk allll the bloody way to the morning market area to xerox. Not eaten since then i was damn hungry.
Had a heavy lunch with Evelyn thy all.
How was the first lecture today. Well i ady felt like puking before and the humour brought out by the lecture makes me wanna puke more.
There were other things as well... but guess i should try to be ignore or thick. Just try to do what i am suppose to do and rock with it. You cant just let things take over ya do ya??
Just dun wish to let things crash into me and be unhappy. . .
Timetable was pretty awful this semester. having to wake up at 8 on wed n thurs and fight till like 2 sumthin with little breaks. awful. no class on tues. it was great. monday was okay too but havin class till 7.30. that is horrible. friday and sat was painful for everyone except me. i dun mind. haha. ^^ Hope for the best this sem. RAWRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRrr
If im not suppose to know... why bother trying to know? It's unfair in some sense. When you respect them and treat them well and you was hoping the same... but they don't really have to treat you the same way isn't it? Sometimes people always think i know or something and said " oh i though you know" and this and that... =_=
sigh wht am i babbling. There is one day coming soon. That i know i will or may get hurt. Sucks that i know how it would happen anyway.maybe... hope i forgot it when i go to sleep.
Few more days to uni soon. Prepare to listen to childish complains and i listed those things that would happen in my brain.
FUCKKKKKKKKKKKK!!!!!!!!
I got a bloody hell virus invasion. corrupted all my files and i cant copy anything in my backup!!!!!!!!!!!! ARGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH
FLARING WILDLY!!!!!!!!!
10 PM and i not eaten since 2. Too furious to eat. ARGHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!
BLOODY VIRUS!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I had a dream not long ago where i found out things by accident from someone i trust a lot. Somehow did it come true or ahve i just been thinking too much? It really hurts. I don't seem to understand what am i typing or am thinking. It's just that i felt that i was lied on???? Things were okay for me these few days and i disregard my nightmare but... why did it happened?
Yea it sure hurts if one has been lied or something. Maybe i guess i deserved it. But then again the thought just doesn't sound logic. I felt avoided and yet i too felt like a malicious stalker which is sick. I just don't understand why..why ... WHY????
I rather get smacked with the truth and face the pain than ...
Im so confused now. felt like dying.what the hell is wrong with me now? why the hell is it happening...
I hope i am just thinking tooo much. Yes maybe. I hope. Stilll it hurts. Fuck.
Hope i just forget it. Act stupid. Well being stupid is better. No need to think so far. what the hell... sigh... AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH
Out biting here and there at Ss2 night market. Had a lo han guo, yam bread, taiwan pizza, hearbal tea egg and a china burger. XD
I felt a tremor a while a go. Shooked a few times. tot i was not balanced but shouts from my neighbour came and siaukoon asked me if i felt anything shaking cos she thinks she was just dizzy. Haha... could be tremors from China or sumwhere else. Sigh...
Love,
once broken,
is like a crack in the mirror.
Shattered. Never the same again.
The sharp pains, haunting me everynight.
Leaving me in tears... endless tears...
I see myself in tears when i look at the broken mirror.
Glueing it back wont make things right...because..
you will see an incomplete person there...
lost...
lost....
lost...
I don't wish to throw it away,
Nor i wish to keep it.
Why not see the mirror as how it was once beautiful?
instead of looking whats destroyed...
Would cutting myself with the mirror change anything?
Throwing it away or buying a new one?
No ...
Why not... take a fragment of the mirror,
there you see a complete self...
throw the rest away..
Yes there is a solution,
yes there is a possibility,
but ....
but...
but...
Would she take the risk?
the oppourtunity to give each other a chance?
It hurts.. hurts... hurts...
for sometimes a reborn is too late...
and we wish we would just die and fade away...
but that would be stupidity...
drowned and haunted by that i could have done,
but why don't people just understand?
why is it too late when one had finally changed?
Rome was not built in a day
so is my courage...
I can only blame my slowness...
the pain just grows...
what can be done?
There is a pain behind those smiles i see in the mirror...
with tears...
i end.
