Jewel & Sapphire™

Her songs always make me smile. I've forgotten her for quite some time. >< Heres two song that i would like to share... where she forgets her lyrics. Haha.. A beautiful morning to go with today...^^

Luna Sea - Love song. This song made me in tears often. Their final act. :)



OKay heres a happier song. :) titled Julia

Crucify my love
If my love is blind
Crucify my love
If it sets me free
Never know Never trust
"That love should see a color"
Crucify my love
If it should be the way

Swing the heartache
Feel it inside out
When the wind cries
I'll say goodbye
Tried to learn Tried to find
To reach out for eternity
Where's the answer
Is this forever

Like a river flowing to the sea
You'll be miles away, and I will know
I know I can deal with the pain
No reason to cry

Crucify my love
If my love is blind
Crucify my love
If it sets me free
Never know Never trust
"That love should see a color"
Crucify my love
If it should be the way

'Til the loneliness shadows the sky
I'll be sailing down and I will know
I know I can clear clouds away
Oh Is it a crime to love

Swing the heartache
Feel it inside out
When the wind cries
I'll say goodbye
Tried to learn Tried to find
To reach out for eternity
Where's the answer
Is this forever

If my love is blind
Crucify my love
If it sets me free
Never know Never trust
"That love should see a color"
Crucify my love
If it should be the way



Another song i listen to frequently

Some quotes i gathered on how i feel...

William Butler Yeats
Hearts are not had as a gift, But hearts are earned...

Anonymous
The saddest thing in the world, is loving someone who used to love you.

Tennessee Williams
There is a time for departure even when there's no certain place to go.

Samuel Butler
It is better to have loved and lost than never to have lost at all

Charlie Brown
Nothing takes the taste out of peanut butter quite like unrequited love.

Herman Hesse
Some of us think holding on makes us strong; but sometimes it is letting go.

Anais Nin
Love never dies a natural death. It dies because we don't know how to replenish its source. It dies of blindness and errors and betrayals. It dies of illness and wounds; it dies of weariness, of withering, of tarnishing.

Anon. . .
No, I can’t erase the wrong I’ve done but I hope you can give me another chance. Because if you were me, you would want the same and I’d give that chance to you

The ones that you love the most are usually the ones that hurt you the most.

Better never to have met you in my dream than to wake and reach for hands that are not there.


It's not just about love between a couple sometimes. But the love between a friend. It dies of errors and misunderstandings ... and all things irrelevant...

It sure is a lousy, boring and painful day. Even the night wouldn't let go of me. Was out with my housemate for a dinner at Tappers cafe. The portion was so farking small!!!! I was like... wth is that? I ordered this minute chicken chop.theres a slice of bread, 23 small peas, a small potato and a small portion of chicken breast. Damn i can cook a better meal than that with RM 8.50!!!! Didn't ate much d whole day and even the dinner spoiled my mood worse. SIGH. Wasn't really hungry tho. Should have gone to midvalley instead...

It's another day i don't like. Tho i finished touching up my blog. I felt lost in some sense. Sat at the sofa for an hour thinking too much. What is in my mind? A lot of things. Was thinking bout friends and family. Myself and other minor things. I intend to go out today but ...

Wonder why is it happening again when it shouldn't be. Tired today. Now. Just flipped over some poems.

The Early Purges

I was six when I first saw kittens drown.
Dan Taggart pitched them, 'the scraggy wee shits',
Into a bucket; a frail metal sound,

Soft paws scraping like mad. But their tiny din
Was soon soused. They were slung on the snout
Of the pump and the water pumped in.

'Sure, isn't it better for them now?' Dan said.
Like wet gloves they bobbed and shone till he sluiced
Them out on the dunghill, glossy and dead.

Suddenly frightened, for days I sadly hung
Round the yard, watching the three sogged remains
Turn mealy and crisp as old summer dung

Until I forgot them. But the fear came back
When Dan trapped big rats, snared rabbits, shot crows
Or, with a sickening tug, pulled old hens' necks.

Still, living displaces false sentiments
And now, when shrill pups are prodded to drown
I just shrug, 'Bloody pups'. It makes sense:

'Prevention of cruelty' talk cuts ice in town
Where they consider death unnatural
But on well-run farms pests have to be kept down.

written by Seamus Heaney.


Studied this before when i was in lower six. Maybe it applies to somethings that what i want to say or feel? It's just about the transition from childhood to adulthood. Something a child don't understand and when he grews up. He finally knows why certain things need to be done. In some sense, it's just like there is a reason for someone to do somethings. Other people may not understand, only the person who do it will know. To reach understanding is to be in the person shoes. Growing up in a farm life. I was kinda glad that i need not to kill animals. . .

Spend the whole day trying to look for a new skin for my blog. Very tiring one. This is the final production.A bit creepy tho. >< Click the pics for colour.:)

Free star bucks!!!!!!!!! First time i had that drink. Celebrating their new opening at Jaya One. Didn't put enough sugar that time i had a bitter afternoon. Ouch.

I had a bad feeling about somethings. It's kinda weird that... well it happened before that when things are going smooth. I started to feel uneasy that things... painful and hurtful things are going to happen again. I don't understand why i felt that way. Just hope that it won't come true and they're merely nonsense thoughts. I've stopped thinking too much as promised and tried and my sleeps had been better.

Dar God, i just want to be happy like everyone else.I just want a life. Why is this test of yours so tough? Why can't you be fair to me just a little bit? My family is already a... sigh.

Life sure is full of challenges. Going up and down.

To Joreen sis. Thanks. I'll try to smile. :)

To the one who asked me too. I'll try to smile too. :)

Semester is going to end in a matter of weeks. It's been a happy and painful one.

Sensei Nahan Rajan had a exhibition today title: WIndow to Japan where he featured a lot of things he collected n bought from Japan. Lots of pottery that i wanna steal there. Haha. Happy to be there. ^^

I wish i had the guts to walk away and forget about what i had. But, i can't, because i know it won't come after me, and I guess that's what hurt the most'...

stole this from someone...

Ice...
melts slowly when it is warm
and that's when im in love.

Ice...
shatters when dropped to the ground,
when my heart is hurt

Maybe that's how my heart is like.
Cold.

In love.

I got fooled the night before april. A friend, Li Li send me an sms saying shes getting married on June and invites me to go there and i BELIEVE IT. And i was kinda WHA??? thats a shock too me cos its so sudden and due to her status as i know her. Den i ask her on msn and she also said yes and bla bla. then she ask me to look down the bottom of the sms and dot dot dot...for 5 minutes i was the greatest fool on earth. Imma strangle her when i see her next time.

Was addicted to this game called Goldminer and it was hard to score. I played the friendster version till level 11 which i am proud with and Level 9 for the web version. Then i intro this game, the web version to yu hua and not bad for a starter... she got through level 11 in a few days while i took weeks...!!! i was like.... AHHHHH.... tut tut tut.... (foam coming out of my mouth)

Days went well to some extents i guess. Just yesterday i had a presentation and im proud that i kinda scored well. XD YESH!!! but well the assignments kinda ouchy. It's week 14 next week. The semester goes pretty fast. Will work hard for the exam.
Missed home so much but i cant go back due to financial problems. SIGH. That's a heart break... it will be another 5 months till i have the chance to go back ... Lord help us...